He’s on his way…

•June 3, 2007 • Leave a Comment

I found out yesterday (June 2) that I was dilated 1 cm and it looked like the baby was going to come sooner than expected.  The baby is due around July 23, but he apparently is eager to see the world!  So as of yesterday as a precaution I’ve been placed on steroids to help his little lungs develop a bit faster, which I’m thankful that this has been done.

More news will come as things progress.

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Gonna fight to the very end…

•May 31, 2007 • Leave a Comment

“Don’t give up; it’s just the weight of the world.”

Beautiful.

I don’t know what it is about music, but it always seems to stir the soul; often times speaking to you at that exact moment when it needs to be heard most. I think for most of us, when we are down — down to the point where your heart begins to literally ache, we began looking for comfort; welcoming any form in which it may come. We began to search on our own accord, when any other time in our lives we would simply just move along with the rest of the world, and disregard the feelings deep inside of us.

But for far too long now, I have found myself utterly lost in feelings of doubt, remorse, and heartache. Some of these I can explain and others I cannot. But I do know, as I was lying awake this morning, that I found myself being spoken the exact words I needed to hear.

It was a cheesy song by an artist that the majority of the world has found inspirational, though I have personally never cared for his particular style in the past. But in that moment, there was nothing that could have conveyed the message any better than what I had heard.

As a people we seek companionship, approval, and love. We seek things that often times we cannot have; and the times when we can and do have them, it seems like half the time we aren’t satisfied with them. It’s not enough — we want more. Once we’ve gotten a taste of the things we seek, we desire to have more. It’s human nature.

For quite some time I have been seeking some things that I had discovered I had lost, and some things I’ve never had. I had no words for the feelings that had begun to surface. It was a strange feeling, and one that I had never truly experienced before – at least not to that degree. It was the feeling of having the weight of the world on my shoulders. The desires of my heart, some that I had already obtained, had become muffled by the screams, cries, and demands of expectations and circumstances that were quite honestly… overwhelming.

Simply put.. I needed to hear “you are loved.” I needed to hear that I wasn’t alone. That things would be okay. That the things I wanted to achieve were possible. That the things that had been lost could be found, and the things that I wanted… were just around the corner. Even when we know we’re loved, we as humans have to hear it. Even when we can see the desires of our hearts, we as humans still have to hear, “there it is, right there, just an arm’s reach away.” The reassurance is a softening of the human spirit, and the love conveyed from it defines us, and brings a certain calm that we wouldn’t find anywhere else. For the past few months I’ve been longing for that exact thing that would remove my feelings of loneliness, of regret, and of hurt. I wanted my feelings explained, because I myself could not explain them.

I didn’t know what I was seeking; because I was bound by a world that demanded my attention and suffocated my hope in the things that made me happy and the desires that my heart longed for. So I had begun to give up on my dreams. I had begun to give up on the hope of any form of a redeeming factor. I had begun to give up on the things that had always brought comfort in the light of disheartening circumstances.

The words were simple, but true. The message short, but clear. I’m paraphrasing, but the integrity of the words and its meaning remains:

When your heart’s heavy, I will lift it for you.
When you want to be heard and the silence keeps you, I will break it for you.
When you want to be understood, I will hear you.
It’s just the hurt that you hide, and when you’re lost inside, I will be there to find you.
And because you want to burn bright and the darkness blinds you, I will shine to guide you.
It’s just the weight of the world, so don’t give up.
You are loved.

Maybe I’m the only one that feels this way… but I doubt it.

If…

•March 18, 2007 • Leave a Comment

Wind DragonI was extrememly bored on St. Patty’s day, and after a lot of sleep and an insane amount of staring at a blinking cursor, I decided to do a little net surfing.

While doing so I came across one of those corny quiz sites that talk about “If you were _____, what kind of a _____ would you be?” Out of boredom I decided to do a few of the quizzes and I found out the following:

1) If I were a movie character, I would most likely be Carrie from the film that bares the same name,

2) If I were a dragon, I would most likely be a Wind Dragon (picture depicted above), and

3) If I were a god/goddess, I would most likely be Zeus.

Now 2 out of 3 aren’t bad I should say. I tend to agree with the movie character, since Carrie happens to be one of my favorite movies (what does that say about me???), and I probably only like the idea of the Wind Dragon due to the fact that the depiction provided was quite good. And, I do have a fascination with nature so ‘wind’ would tie into that. However, I don’t have an obsession with multiple partners nor would I have married a bitch like Hera, so I can’t agree that I would be a Zeus. Like I said… two out of three ain’t bad. 😉

Sunset…

•March 12, 2007 • Leave a Comment

sunset.jpgI guess I haven’t had much to say in the past week. Real life issues getting in the way of normalcy, which for me means sitting around on my rump and writing/reading or something in between there which might include a few key notes from Bach.

As I was conversing with a friend a few days ago, she was mentioning about a recent pic taken by another friend of hers. I must say, as I looked at his portfolio, I was in absolute awe. I happen to love sunsets, and so I asked for permission to share this one on the blog.

Do we ever truly take time out to watch a sunset every now and then? Sometimes our lives seem so busy, that even the simplest things in life seem too time consuming, to make the effort to stop and just…. SEE. But the fact is…. never too late to take a few minutes out to watch one of the most beautiful things mother nature has to offer.

Enjoy.
P.S. Thanks for reminding me of that Mish.

“Take A Meeting” is just around the corner…

•March 2, 2007 • Leave a Comment

For those who are not aware, “Take A Meeting” (TAM) is an annual event where scriptwriters can buy a time slot to sit down with an executive of their choice and discuss (unlike pitching) a script idea. Sessions last 15 minutes, and you are given a breakdown of the pros and cons of your script(s), as well as how to improve on your script.

There are two ways to participate in TAM. You can either, purchase the Final Draft program, Scriptwriters Showcase Gold or Silver Package, or you can pay $99 per session.

Now, in my opinion, there are pros and cons to participating in TAM. The pros being: valuable feedback, non-pitch pressure, honest study of your script idea, and exposure to industry leaders. The cons are as follows: Sadly, it’s only 15 minutes, and you have to either pay for your session or pay by purchasing the above mentioned software.

Overall, I have found TAM to be a very promising and valuable tool when it comes to getting some true blue feedback on a script idea (complete or not).

This year, TAM will be held at Sheraton Universal Hotel in Hollywood, CA on April 20 thru April 22.

Due to limited spacing and appointment times, there are only 999 slots available for the event. To register you can go to:
https://secure.thriva.com/Reg/Form.aspx?IDTD=2509&IDRPH=1309064

or if you would like to take advantage of the promotional offer from Final Draft (highly recommended scriptwriting company), you can go to: https://secure.thriva.com/Reg/Form.aspx?IDTD=2509&IDRPH=1309064

(Use code F301 to receive 10% off your purchase price)

Marion Zimmer Bradley Literary Works Trust invites you…

•March 1, 2007 • Leave a Comment

A friend of mine (thanks, Rachel) brought this to my attention a few weeks ago…

Norilana Books will be publishing a new MZB anthology in November 2007. The MZB Literary Works Trust is inviting writers to submit no later than April 20, 2007 for possible publication of their stories in the anthology.

For complete details and submission guidelines, you can visit:

http://mzbworks.home.att.net/s22.htm

Back in the saddle

•February 26, 2007 • 4 Comments

inspn_e1705_cfg1a.jpgOk, so I’m taking it as a sign, when I get my new laptop a few days early and I start getting nervous twitches while staring at a desktop folder full of incomplete WiPs (Works in Progress) .

I’m thinking that my little mini-vacation may in fact be coming to an end. When the muse starts begging, it’s time for me to start saddling. And, that appears to be exactly what I’m getting ready to do.

Maybe it’s just the excitement of my new toy. It’s not impressive like some of those crazy models out there these days, but it holds its own. Lots of RAM, a great processor, and a chance to tackle Windows new Vista O/S is something I’m looking forward to, as I break this new puppy in.

My upgraded Dell Inspiron 1501 has the following: AMD 3800 Processor, 2 Gigs RAM, ATI Raedon 512 MB HyperMemory, 120 GB HD, Vista Premium, CD-RW/DVD-RW, High Def Audio, and (my fav) 802.11 a/g Wireless Card